sick

I miss hem

There's one boy who I can say I love more than anything he's name brennan he's got the cutest smile ever and one of the kissable face ever and I'm not afarid to say I love hem were not dating anymore but I would really want to date hem again he's so nice and one of the good guys he never made me do anything I didn't what to do and he has the same values as me about no sex before marrage and when I kiss hem I feel like its my first kiss and I don't even feel anything else but that kiss I miss hem I want hem to be mine again he's the first boy that truly made me feel beautiful and as I'm writing this I want to cry but if we were met to be well be together again

                                                                       Missing in love,
                                                                                Ethel

I HATE her

Well as you can see by the title I'm mad at Candiss! All of are phones are geting shut off because she can't pay the bill WTF what kind of bills do you have. And you always wine because you don't have money that's because you never take over time and you most always stay at work because you feel "sick" also the money that goes to the phone bill is the money your soposed to pay my mom for watching your bratie ass kids I really don't what to see your tuna face your gross and you never wear under wear you sicken me and some times I really wish I could move away :-( but I can't because I love my parents and you make my grandma upset you c word! I'm not talking to you no more also mom I know your reading this and this is how I really feel I love you mom and I love dad and ill never run away. 
                                                                    Mad and Sad,
                                                                                Ethel
Also to who else reads this
I'm mad and if I don't write
Ill yell at her and I don't want
To start trouble

Me

Hi my real name is Tristina. I've been called ethel ever since I was a little girl. I even have a tattoo that says Ethel I'm 17 and I have 2 brothers I have a stay at home  mom and a workaholic dad and my mom some times lets people stay with us I used to hate it but I've.learned to live with it. But here's more about me. I've been bullied ever since I was young. In 6th grade I had lot of older friends then they all left for high school and I was alone and I got bullied a lot more and most and I started cuting when I was in the second semester of 7th grade and I stoped when a kid at my school killed hem self and it made me think about my life and change and I stoped cuting that day but the bullying didn't stop till I was in 8th grade because I started talking back to people I became a bully then I came to the high school and I had friends again but in the passed year I've lost friend after friend because they all moved or there sick and now I'm alone now just like in 7th grade but I'm not sad because I know ill make friends soon even when I'm in a large group of people I feel like I have some friends but I only have about 2 ill make friends sooner or later ill be fine :-)  
                                                                   No friends but not sad,
                                                                                      Ethel <3

Friends

Here's the truth I have no real friends I don't feel like I fit in at all I don't hang out with anyone I don't have a boyfriend all my friends have either left because they just don't want to go to school or there sick I have no friends there are a couple few that I talk to and eat lunch with but I don't text or talk to anyone except my family and my ex boyfriend I just feel so alone some times most of the time I don't even want to come to school and others I pray to go to school I'm alone even at home I try to have fun but then savannah does something that makes me mad and I can't ingiore it I'm alone but I'm not sad because I know there's a reason and a lession to why I don't have any friends.                                    
                                                           Nobodys friend,
                                                                    Ethel

Sleep

I come home from school and did an hour of homework and then I lated down and went to sleep and woke up 5 hours later. There's no point in this story but all in saying is that I got on hell of a nap today :-)
                              Tired and Hungary
                                    Ethel lol

Monday

I'm going to hate today because my best friend is still not back from her moms house she hasn't be at school in 5 Weeks and everybody is worried and there all going to ask we're is Priscilla  and I'll be like not here and everyone will get mad at me